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ዮ Free Read  Format Kindle ಯ A $500 House in Detroit: Rebuilding an Abandoned Home and an American City (English Edition)  ፏ ePUB Author Drew Philp ፫ ዮ Free Read Format Kindle ಯ A $500 House in Detroit: Rebuilding an Abandoned Home and an American City (English Edition) ፏ ePUB Author Drew Philp ፫ A 500 House in Detroit CHAPTER 1 Raw Material Poletown, an urban prairieI moved to Detroit with no friends, no job, and no money I just came, blind Nearly anyone I told I was moving to the city thought it was a terrible idea, that I was throwing my life away I was close to graduating from the University of Michigan, one of the best universities in the world, and I was a bit of an anomaly there, too Aside from an uncle, Im the oldest male member of my family with all of my fingers intact, and the first in at least three generations never to have worked in front of a lathe Growing up, I thought blue collar still meant middle class No longer At the university I met only one other student whose father worked with his hands On a sweltering day my pops and his truck helped move my few possessions into the Cass Corridor, which had been recently renamed Midtown by developers in an attempt to obscure the past It was the red light district, containing a few bars, artists, and at one time the most murders in murder city Detroits major university was just up the street, skid row down the block An ex girlfriend who had spent time in rehab for a small heroin addiction helped me find the place She was the only person I knew who lived in Detroit, and she left for Portland the day I moved in Both my father and I nervously carried what little I had into my efficiency apartment a single pot, a bed to lay on the floor, a futon frame Id fished from the trash and fixed with a bit of chain link fence My father didnt always have the money to buy me new things, so he taught me how to fix old ones School nights growing up were spent hunched under the sink with the plumbing, summers reroofing the garage, always right next to my father and his gentle guidance The futon frame was a first attempt to fix something by myself Sitting on the thing was terribly uncomfortable So was the move in If I was out of place at school, I was way out of place here I was in one of two apartments occupied by white people in the building, which was filled with folks whom society has deemed undesirable drug dealers, gutter punks covered in stick and poke tattoos, petty thieves, a thin and ancient prostitute who covered the plastic hole in her neck with her finger when she smoked She once told me, Youll pawn your clothes for your nose, cuz horse is the boss of your house, referring to heroin My dad locked the truck between each trip up the three flights of dirty vinyl stairs I could sense he was uneasyI was, toobut he never said anything aside from smiling and helping me lift my cheap necessities Year to year, Detroit was still the most violent city in the United States, with the highest murder rate in the nation, higher than most countries in South America My walk up nobody could remember the last time the elevator worked was less than 300 a month and didnt come with a kitchen sink The landlord waived the security deposit if I agreed to clean the place myself I wasnt quite through with school, but the wealth of Ann Arbor had become stifling Compared with many Detroiters I was wildly privileged, but at the university I was feeling increasingly distant I had great friends who were generous, and I felt lucky to get the education I did, but I wanted to use that for something meaningful at home At the time than half of UMich students were leaving the state upon graduation, and I didnt want to be one of them I thought I might be able to use my schooling to help somehow I navely thought, with all the zeal of a well read twenty one year old white kid, that I could marry my education with my general knowledge of repairing things and fix the biggest project, the ailing city that had loomed over my childhood, as if it were a sink or a roof I thought Id just be there for one summer The giant man across the hall from my apartment was moving out as I was moving in He wore a green sweatshirt printed with the name of a Greektown bar where by his size I figured he must have been a bouncer He asked if I wanted his dresser and television I decided I could use the former He must have sensed my unease, because as we clumsily carried the furniture into my apartment he looked me dead in the eye He had these big beady bloodshot eyes He whispered, Youre welcome here, like an incantation I wasnt sure what to make of that No stranger had ever thought to tell me I was going to be safe when moving into a new apartment If I was going to stay in Michigan, Detroit seemed natural It was the most important city in the state by any measure, and in some ways it was the most important city in the Midwest In symbolic terms, its maybe the most important in America Henry Ford and Detroit had invented the modern age along with the assembly line Then, when it was convenient, that line had turned into a conveyor belt dumping Detroit straight into the junkyard of American dreams At the time, I didnt realize Detroit was just America with the volume turned all the way up, that what was about to happen would have repercussions for the rest of the Western world Detroit was the most interesting city on the planet because when you scratched the surface you found only a mirror After wishing me luck my father left, and I spent that first night looking out my third floor window My parents were hardworking people who had followed the rules of the boomer generation, and it in turn had treated them well They went to work faithfully, saved their money, and in the waning years of their employment had achieved a measure of middle class comfort that was the envy of the world What they didnt understand was that the rules had changed and their prosperity had been mortgaged against the future Their children would be the first American generation with less material wealth than their parents Some of that complacent bliss they had enjoyed had been stolen, and the wars, wealth inequality, and environmental exhaustion they had allowed to go unchallenged would someday need to be repaid I imagined my father spent the same evening having a drink with my mother, hoping they wouldnt be burying their son and that Id figure out what I could do with the general studies degree I was about to be awarded, along with a steaming pile of student loan debt, about equal to the national average Although they loved me fiercely and had given me every advantage they could afford, they couldnt understand what I was doing in Detroit I spent most of those early days sitting on the stoop watching the neighborhood pass by, hoping to find a job It seemed like everyone who could, and wanted to, had left I wasnt eager to begin the meaningless corporate work to pay off the tens of thousands in debt Id accumulated, on the student loans Id signed at seventeen before I could buy a pack of cigarettes or drink in a bar, so I stayed At the time, moving to Detroit meant dropping out, in the Timothy Leary sense, to remove myself as one bolt in the proverbial machinenot as a sabot to throw in the cogsbut to get out of America by going into its deepest regions A few days after Id arrived, one of the few other white kids in the building asked me to help move a television to the Dumpster I walked into his apartment as he was shooting up You want some I have clean needles I declined, but asked him if I could watch Sure He had just begun to tie off around his biceps, and the shot was in a syringe that he held between his teeth I watched as he put the tip of the needle slowly into his vein at an oblique angle, his knuckles resting on his forearm He pulled back the plunger, his blood clouding the heroin like a drop of red food coloring in a vial of vinegar He pushed the shot into his circulatory system, like the colored acid kissing the baking soda in a science fair volcano A great bubbling calm washed over him as he lit a cigarette This, apparently, was going to be my new life I rolled one myself and we smoked in silence, until he broke it So you want to move that TV In a scene that would repeat itself as I got deeper into the city, those kids soon left, too In this case, they hopped trains to California and the marijuana harvest I was the only white face left in the building I would get offered drugs or sex, on the street, almost daily Buying drugs was then almost the only reason a white kid would be in the city With nothing to do I wandered the neighborhood in boredom and was mistaken for a customer No thanks, maam, I stick with the amateurs Im all right, I just quit Nah, man, crack isnt my style Drinking, however, was On Mondays the bar behind me would brew beer and the whole neighborhood would smell like baking bread Id never been to a bar or even a film alone, but started going there to drink by myself all night, occasionally chatting with the bartenders or the barflies, semigenius immigrants from Africa, artists working in strange materials such as pigskin, labor historians and Communists, Mexican poets, Iranian gear heads, Korean illustrators, an entire drunk UN It made me realize there might just be to Detroit than the death and poverty that was all I saw on the news The staff would often take pity on me, too, serving me free drinks or letting me stay after they switched off the neon OPEN sign One friendly bartender drove me to the grocery store in nearby Dearborn to show me where to buy food Until the Whole Foods showed up in 2013 there wasnt a single grocery store chain in the city On my stoop I met a man named Zeno who was a crack dealer We had little in common, but became friends out of habit and proximity, our floating schedules aligned He had a difficult time understanding what I was doing in a place like that So did I But Id learned something by facilitating poetry workshops in prisons over the previous couple of years when you have little in common with someone and you are forced to interact, you talk about what you do have, big stuff, God and Man and War and Love Things get deep pretty quickly and it often creates bonds not easily broken Are you a cop Zeno said What Are you a cop Are you wearing a wire, motherfucker He grabbed the front of my shirt in his fist and pressed his face close to mine Wed been drinking pretty heavy one night and had gone into his apartment to roll a joint He had repainted his three rooms himself, and paid the super extra to add carpet to the living room The floors were spotless and the furniture made of dark wood A saltwater fish tank had a pleasant blue glow and sat at the end of the small hallway, and hed installed a chandelier over the glass kitchen table He had created a little oasis inside the tenement He had once told me, Your home is your refuge When the world outside is so fucked up, you have to have somewhere nice to come back to Your own castle A wire What are you talking about He stared silently at me, his brow hard and aggressive Take off your shirt He flicked the front of my T shirt with his thumb If you arent wearing a wire take that shit off Dude, how long have you known me What the fuck I reached to get a cigarette from a pack on the table He got to it first He picked the pack up slightly and dropped them, his eyes never breaking contact with mine Not long enough Take it off I wasnt sure what to do next So I took off my shirt If there is a cool way to put your shirt back on after having been ordered to take it off by your only friend in a new town, I havent found it After that he made it his business to show me around He took me on crack deals and to his sisters house for dinner, introduced me to the projects, and when I said I didnt know what Belle Isle wasour version of Central Park on an island in the Detroit Riverhe made me get in his car and go, right then As we drank forties out of plastic cups sitting on his hood, watching the sun set over the skyscrapers downtown, he told me about his life Kicked out of school at fourteen, mother an addict, father nonexistent To him, selling dope was honorable than the food line There was little to no honest work for a high school dropout, and what hed triedthe docks, for example, were controlled by the Mob, racial hierarchy, and bored animositynever seemed to make ends meet So he did his work, and was good at it He sold just enough to eat and keep a roof over his head He never touched anything harder than marijuana and had never been in any serious trouble He was a unicorn in his line of work After months of looking I managed to find a job in the most unlikely of places the classified section of a newspaper I met my new boss for the first time in a bar with Formica tables and moody waitresses because I was too wary to bring him to my apartment He was a large man with an enormous voice and a black SUV just as big He had grown up in the city, but had since moved to the suburbs to raise his kids He explained his company was an all black construction company and he needed a clean cut white boy to sell his jobs in the suburbspeople wouldnt hire him when his address read Detroit and the first person they saw was black I grew up in a small rural town far outside Detroits suburban sprawl, and knew little about the animosity between the city and the ring of municipalities that surrounded it I didnt know that Detroit is the most racially segregated metropolitan area in the nation The semester before, nearly all my classes had concerned race and were mostly filled with white people Our discussions would tiptoe around the subject, students performing incredible verbal yoga, twisting themselves into absurdity to avoid mentioning anything that might offend anyone I was happy to be my bosss white face At work we talked frankly about race When a call would come in, we would discuss whether she sounded white or black If she sounded white, I would bid the job If she sounded black, my boss would I would also work alongside everyone else sanding floors for 8.50 an hour, plus commission if I sold a job When I came home and blew my nose the snot would be black from sawdust and polyurethane I worked out the summer there, hunched over a thirty pound disk sander, a long way from the university In August we had a job for one of my bosss relatives, also kin to my coworker Jimmy, a kind man with whom I worked closest and who taught me everything I know about hardwood floors The relatives flat was on the second story, so we had to carry the machines upstairs and the sawdust down The homeowner had worked thirty years on the line at Ford and had lived in what he called the ghetto for most of his life, but he was proud and comfortable, in his finances and with who he was After shaking hands and looking me over suspiciously, he showed me each gun he had hidden around his home Whoa Theres another one, he said as he pulled something long from under the couch Bam He mimed shooting an invisible intruder, then winked at me I got the sense everyone respected him, but he didnt trust me because I was white While we sanded and scrubbed, he apparently felt the need to work as well, and stood outside with a chain saw, cutting down tiny invasive trees that had grown into his yard, none thicker than his wrist His adult son followed him, admonishing him to take it easy Boy, I take shits bigger than you Youre slowing me down He reared the saw in his sons direction Now get on the other side of that tree there and look out At midday, he offered to buy us lunch Do you guys eat chicken The crew, all black aside from me, sat bone tired on his back steps, shrugging at the question and pulling at bottles of Gatorade I could have passed an anatomy test on the muscles in my back Now, I said Im going to buy you lunch Do you guys eat fried chicken Jimmy answered, Of course we eat chicken, were black The record stopped with a scratch Everyone looked at me I was a vegetarian, something I had picked up at the university, as a challenge to myself I hadnt had any flesh of any kind in than two years, but I hadnt told any of my coworkers for fear of ridicule I, um I was a little too stunned to come up with what to say Id be breaking a pact I had made with myself Then again, maybe Id be exchanging it for a new one He lives right around the corner Hes black, Jimmy said, saving me I, um Well, do you eat chicken They all looked back at me I eat chicken Sanding floors showed me many areas of the city outside my bubble in Midtown and got me thinking Maybe I could make a go of it here Maybe I could buy a house, live in it while I was fixing it, and flip it or rent it when I moved elsewhere They were practically giving them away The problem was I had no idea how to buy a house, let alone fix one up It was just a vague idea I thought I might start with something in the vast and relatively dense residential ghettos of the city where crime ruled second only to abandonment Or maybe in a nice historic district where proud people still raised families and mostly kept to themselves But first, I had to finish school, at my parents behest I wouldnt leave Detroit, not yet I blocked my classes on two days a week so I could still work at the floor place, but 8.50 an hour doesnt buy much gas when its four dollars a gallon, as it was then, so I would often hitchhike between the two cities One time a professional gambler picked me up, going to one of the new casinos in Detroit The houses of gambling were the latest in a long line of economic silver bullets that never seemed to make the city any less broke The gambler had holes in his jeans and hollow eyes I asked him what game to play in a casino if I wanted to win What were my best odds He, too, looked me dead in the eye He said, Dont ever walk into a casino Commuting between the desperate poverty of Detroit and the cosmic wealth of the university had made me sick, gave me economic jet lag of the conscience The explosive inequality was eating me from the inside Detroit was among the poorest cities in the United States and located only forty five minutes away from Ann Arbor, one of the richest The University of Michigan, a public school, costs to attend for an out of state student than the average American makes in a year Id begun to think of them as different worlds, and having a foot in each was taxing on my view of the country that placed them so close together, and disrupting for my love of the university that had seemed to insulate itself from the desperation just down the street Id known, too, just a little bit about what it feels like to be hungry and watch someone eat I was dangerously broke and in Detroit unsupported by the orbit of wealth at the university, where I could casually walk into a dining hall past the bored attendant for a free, stolen meal or rely on my wealthier friends to pick up the tab at the bar I began to question if I could go back at all, sanctimony about my new home working as an antidote to my sickness of dissonance Living in Detroit wasnt exactly easy, but it seemed noble somehow, and honest Amid the glass chandeliers and ivy of the university I had been selected to teach a class concerning race to other undergraduates, overseen by a kindly older professor named Charles As I was getting a firsthand look at scratching out a living working near minimum wage jobs and the drug trade, other student teachers in the class were taking internships at places like Goldman Sachs and questionably capitalistic nonprofits in India I thought this was bullshit and told them so I told my teachers, including Charles, I thought academia was bullshit, too, sequestered from the real conflict It didnt win me many new friends I drifted farther away from the place that four years earlier had sent me an acceptance letter that had made my father cry in front of me for the first time in either of our lives But Charles would often insist on taking me out to lunch He would listen patiently to my complaints and fury as I told him of my gestating plans to buy a house I had formulated a vague notion I would start some kind of folk school, buy a big place or a duplex and use half for instruction, half for my home Charles, knowingly and gracefully, nodded and smiled as I laid out my dreams for changing the world Maybe, I thought, it would start with a house That nave dream came one step closer when I dressed as an organ grinder for Halloween Just down the street from my apartment in Detroit sat a contemporary art museum that threw wild dance parties I had concealed some cheap liquor inside the organ and set it down in the corner to dance freely When I took a break to retrieve an illicit swig of Old Grand Dad, by chance, sitting next to the liquor cabinet cum music box was a white guy dressed as an organ grinders monkey Something seemed meant to be He said he was a carpenter and his name was Will and he hated crowds, and people in general He had just moved back to Detroit after ten years or so of traveling the States by freight train and thumb, typical methods of crusty punk locomotion Now he had become something different We were both, somewhat desperately, looking for friends, both cynical about finding them I kind of want to buy a house, I told him outside the party, smoking The crowd spilled out into the street and ignored us I just did, he said Its probably burning down right now With my dog in it I called him the next week, nervous and wretched, like asking for a platonic date He invited me over His house stood in a neighborhood on the near east side called Poletown It looked like the apocalypse had descended, that the world and this life was but an afternoon performance that had reached its uneasy conclusion, the players having washed their hands and left for home, the crowd disappointed This didnt look like a city at all In my tiny car I crossed a set of disused train tracks and the houses all but disappeared Poletown seemed prairie land, a huge open expanse of gently waving grass, the sightlines broken only by what appeared as crippled and abandoned houses twisting in on themselves Aside from the grid of roads scarring the expanse, it must have looked close to how the land had appeared when it had been stolen from the Native Americans One of the biblical meanings of apocalypse is New World What structures remained looked like cardboard boxes left in the rain Ominous two story monstrosities with wide open shells and melted porches lurched in bondage like tortured Greek gods of the underworld Forgotten rosebushes ran over palsied fences, and the houses seemed to watch with yellowed eyes, like two story Goya paintings, naked and ragged and proud Trash seeped from the orifices where windows used to be Abandoned dreams, abandoned lives, facades contorted into abandoned smiles Most of the houses had been deserted while still functioning They had died by the elements, harvested clean of valuables by scrappers working as scavengers Slow moving nature had done the rest, reclaiming what it had lost a century ago One of the original areas of white flight, Poletown had also been abandoned by all levels of government, the people who stayed left to fend for themselves The average police response time was about an hour, if they came at all Aside from some brave and stubborn holdouts and their solitary immaculate homes, the neighborhood was dead Or so I thought Wills house stood on the edge of all this, just across the tracks His street, named for the saint of the abandoned cathedral four blocks down, was pimpled with manhole covers spewing great columns of steam from the trash incinerator looming on the horizon In the evening the exhaling bowels of the city created an opaque curtain of fog The only other house on the block was a hideous cinder block project house built by an architecture student from Cranbrook, the same private college Mitt Romney attended as a teenager Whoever built the structure apparently didnt want to live in it either, and it, too, was abandoned, the water pipes burst from freezing long ago As I drove into the alley where Will parked his truck, I noticed behind his place lay a paradise of forest land abutting the Dequindre Cut, a long abandoned railroad trench Any homes and buildings had been torn or fallen down, and nature reigned once again Thirty year old trees grew up between dumped boats and hot tubs and railroad ties and piles of rubble A sextuple of abandoned grain silos presided over the blooming expanse of forgotten land Scrappers would burn the jackets off copper wires at the bottom, as they were doing the first night I visited The fire department will show up soon, Will said contemplatively as I got out of my car He sipped a can of beer and his eyes never left the silos until I walked through the fence gate made from a pallet His yard was filled with things hed found on walks through his neighborhood, shingles, scraps of wood, pieces of sheet metal, halves of garden tools, sad lawn ornaments Will appeared part of the cast off junk as well, the tired leader of a lonely circus I got a good look at him in the light, without his monkey costume, and he was a dead ringer for Hank Williams, the same goofy resting grin, the slim ghostly figure Had he not been moving the cigarette between his mouth and ashing on the scrubby ground, he would have looked like a mannequin, frozen in time with the forgotten things hed collected and given a home to He noticed me side eyeing at some blue 55 gallon barrels Oh, Im going to make a rain barrel system with those, he said He moved the pouch of tobacco from his lap Ill catch the rain coming from the roof and use it to water the garden The water bills here are outrageous In fact, they were In spitting distance of the planets largest source of fresh water, the Great Lakes, the water bills were almost twice the national average Will had dragged the barrels from the market across the tracks, which was still full of working slaughterhouses Hed squirreled them away one by one when they would appear next to Dumpsters and scrubbed some out with bleach Ill let the rain clean the others, he said, and stood, opening his back door The security gate was padlocked near the bottom and a cinder block served as the step up to the threshold This is like a tree house, you can do whatever you want, I said, stepping into his home Will demurred This is great Its not bad, he said, his hands in his pockets This is freedom, I said He didnt look so sure He gave me the short tour an entryway where he kept his garden tools, to a room that held the furnace and the kitchen sink that was not the kitchen, into his kitchen piled with houseplants and mail and knickknacks The living room was a cacophony of found objects, art hed made by himself or presents from friends, a piano covered in trinkets and records, a rack of mixtapes he had saved over the years His house was as full as the outside was empty He wound an ancient childs toy on the piano A tin horse and carriage ran in a circle around a saloon The tinkly music glistened, but one of the bars was broken, rendering a sour note with each revolution I found that last week out back, he said This is my tool room He walked across the hardwood floors and opened a creaking door A table saw stood in the center on a platform made from logs with the bark still attached The rest of the room was filled with dusty tools and half finished birdhouses These are cool, I said, picking up one with an irregular shape and a tin roof Whats this I thumbed the perch, a fat nail with the number 66 stamped into the oversized head Its a date nail You find them walking along the train tracks It tells the year they were put in He took the birdhouse from my hands This ones from 66 That was a good year The half dozen birdhouses in various stages of completion had all been made from junklath, pieces of half burned pine, tiny sheets of metal picked from the dirt, forgotten pipe He was making delicate houses for the free birds of the air at the same time he was building his own, nearly out of the same materials I just do that for fun, he said, shutting the door to the shop Years later the mayors wife would buy one priced in the hundreds of dollars The house was as much Will as he was it Walking inside was like hiking through his cluttered and brilliant mind I would come to call this aesthetic junk punk, common in Detroit and rusting cities like it where the predominant vernacular was of objects cast off then repurposed and reloved by people who had been cast off themselves The old was new again, and you needed a good eye to recognize value among chintz I moved to Detroit right after high school, Will said as I sat in a sagging armchair in the living room He had graduated about a decade earlier than I had I lived downtown in a building across the hall from Kid Rock before he was famous, but never really talked to him I moved out a couple years later to travel the country, riding the trains and hitchhiking, lived in a few cities But I would always come home and drive the streets He stroked his pit bull named Meatballs as he talked It was Armageddon, man It was crazy His voice became excited for the first time in the evening, his sinewy frame inching closer to the edge of the seat Id drive around for hours and I always noticed this house surrounded by nothing I looked it up and it was for sale for three thousand dollars but for years, nobody had purchased it Id always drive by here to see if anyone had bought it One time I drove past after Id just broken up with my girlfriend in North Carolina and I told my roommate at the time, Man, if I had three thousand dollars I would buy that house right now His roommate happened to have received a windfall while he was gone and lent him the money that day He purchased the house, in cash, from a Detroit police officer, the son of the former owner, and had spent the better part of the summer camping there, without much electricity or any plumbing He bought bottled water and mopped with rainwater, planted a garden, and attempted to learn all the trades he needed to get normalcy to the house At the beginning he didnt even have a door, just a sheet of plywood, and would let himself into and out of his own home with a screwgun I pulled open a yellow window shutter behind the chair and watched one lonely house, a lonely empty street, a lonely stoplight doing its duty for no one but us This is the coolest thing Ive ever seen, I told him Can you go with me to the hospital today With no warning, Zeno had called when I was in my socks making eggs Of course Whats wrong Are you hurt Do you need an ambulance Im fine Ill tell you on the way He picked me up in his blue Ford Escort, with his girlfriend, Amy, sitting shotgun She was about half the size of Zeno, and looked shrunken that day The hospital was only a block from my house, and we could have walked, but he picked me up and stopped in the parking garage There was something about the formality of it all The three of us signed in at the desk and received visitor name tags to stick on our chests We walked a short distance to a small one room chapel in the center of the building, a dark chamber with two rows of pews and a stained glass window behind an altar that was backlit with electric light I sat a few rows behind and in the other aisle from Zeno in the front, who put his arm around Amy I wasnt exactly sure what was about to happen After a few moments, a fat white preacher wheeled in a small plastic gurney and parked it before the stained glass window I scratched at the oak grain in the pew I wasnt sure what I was doing here On the gurney lay a tiny bundle, swaddled from head to toe in a blue blanket The child Amy had been carrying, Zenos unborn son, was dead, stillborn Zeno and I had discussed the child months ago He told me he had gotten Amy pregnant, and although neither of the parents had the type of lifestyle that might be considered best to raise a child, they wanted to keep it Zeno explained that living such a dangerous life, in such a dangerous place, he wanted the chance for his lineage to carry on He might not have another opportunity for his seed to be planted, even if the soil wasnt as fertile as to be hoped Why wait for better days when you dont believe there will be better days, and you dont think youll live to see them anyway The preacher folded his hands and opened his sermon with one of the Psalms He spoke about God and Man and Love and read from other religious books and holy works, background noise to the tiny speck of life, extinguished, lying before the altar I dont remember exactly what he said, but I remember Amy crying softly, and Zeno holding her, silent tears streaming down his face Eventually Amy asked the preacher to stop I want to see him Oh my God All right, the preacher answered We usually advise against I want to see him The preacher, with trembling and careful hands, removed the blue blanket from the child Inside, wrapped in a white shroud and no bigger than half a baguette, was their son From the back of the small chapel I could make out his tiny head and little arms and legs inside the blanket, the clear shape of a body A dead little Moses in a plastic basket I want to see his face The preacher hesitated I want to see him for the last time Id only been in Detroit for a few months, and this was what it was going to be like The preacher removed the final blanket The child had a stomach and delicate fingers, chubby legs He was still and stiff and I cannot remember if he had hair, but I remember his eyes Tiny, black, and open I tried to leave, meditate, anything I imagined myself far away, outside the hospital, beyond that the city for miles and then the suburbs, the nice places and the places of peace and silences and waves and amniotic rocking and quiet This world is a sphere, and if you go straight long enough youll end up right back where you were Try as I might, I couldnt escape those black eyes pulling me back into a reality I wanted to ignore The preacher covered the child As long as I live I will never forget the image of those black eyes Afterward, on the ride home, some stereo or other piece of equipment had to be sold to pay the rent Zeno drove us to the place, and when he went inside I sat in the back of the car smoking while Amy wept softly, her head resting against the passenger side window I think Zeno was trying to show me something, to warn me Maybe it was because I didnt know what to say, that with all my education I didnt know how to fix it That I couldnt bring the baby back was a given That I couldnt make things feel any better, for Zeno or myself or everybody in this city and places like it, was a heartbreak Maybe Im projecting Maybe Im not supposed to say anything at all Maybe all the tragedy of this place represented by one dead child isnt for me, a white kid, to try to explain, that I should bow out gracefully, that this world isnt for me and I should admit that my mistake was coming in the first place and never come back Maybe I should have never come at all But I was there I saw it And I cannot unsee it, and I dont know what it means, if anything Now its yours, too Welcome to Detroit A couple of weeks later I went alone to an art show held in a repurposed factory I was still trying to shake off those few moments in the hospital chapel, and school was only making it worse I knew I couldnt go back, but now I was unsure if I could stay here either I tried to keep busy while I decided what to do Past stalls filled with BDSM art and Day Glo paintings of dead rock stars, I stopped at a booth containing dozens of bales of hay A couple of people who seemed to shine as if they had been scrubbed with a brush for the first time in a long time chatted with pedestrians or made roses from painters tape I introduced myself to a white guy, naked under his overalls, who said his name was Garrett and the hay in their booth had been grown in Detroit After some pleasantries, he invited me to an art show that just happened to be in Poletown, half a mile or so from Wills Everyone in the booth lived on a strange and special block tended by a wild and virtuous farmer who had been in the neighborhood for decades Farm animals roamed freely and the farmer had figured out how to make hundreds of bales of hay each year in a neighborhood fifteen minutes by bicycle from downtown The street was named Forestdale The building holding the art show, which they were rehabbing, was named the YES FARM He handed me a hand typed business card I thanked him and asked if I could bring a friend On the day of the show Will and I pulled up to the block in his little white truck It was located within the shadow of the Packard plant, an Albert Kahndesigned factory that had come to a comfortable end as a toxic trash heap At one time steel, sand, and rubber went in one end, and a car came out the other Now trees grew out of the roof It was often on fire, and people talked about it like the weather Aside from the abandoned train station, it was the best ruin porn in the city People hadnt started to take high fashion pictures of nude models in it yet, though, and there was still a notable piece of graffiti placed in the windows of the plants bridge, spanning Grand Boulevard It read, Arbeit macht frei On this block, though, all the houses seemed to be standing and well maintained, an incredible feat for a neighborhood with enough space to grow hay Even without the fires and demolitions, gravity was inescapable Someone had taken care of this place for a long time A community garden with neat little rows and a brightly painted sign sat across the street On the corner was the YES FARM, brick, brightly painted and unmistakable A former apothecary, the front had been painted in stencils and sunshine and brilliant waves of blue Plywood cutouts of exotic animals had been screwed into the crumbling brick A hole was blown into the back of the second story, which I later found out was made when a house across the street exploded, its gas line illegally hooked up with a garden hose A wire, with what looked like an extension cord zip tied to it, was strung between the YES FARM and a window in the house next door As I got out of Wills truck, a fat brown and white dog sniffed at me and wagged his tail He had a collar and nobody seemed concerned that he was just wandering around, so I shooed him away and he went to sniff in the garden I knocked on the side door to the YES FARM, which appeared to be made from two by fours stacked on top of one another, old and new I could hear music from inside and voices I pounded again and still no answer Will shrugged and pushed the door open The room was filled with construction materials and tools The extension cord leading from the house next door was powering a few caged work lights strung across the room like blue collar Chinese lanterns Someone had just finished painting the room with a city scene, black buildings on a red background, primitive style There were doors lying around and stacked against the wall, but none of them hung in the doorways It appeared there was no heat, but there was energy People were working on the place and it seemed this show was part of its renovation I stepped over a ladder and some boxes containing papers and bolts into a room filled with televisions The first piece in the show comprised a diorama of them that had been shot with a gun, Elvis style The title card explained that each set was carefully selected from a mass inventory of TVs found dumped around the city and pistol shot in the basement of the building Another project was signed Molly Motor and consisted of a television that held a live rooster with straw and food, a TV terrarium Inside was also a set of what looked to be hairy cigars, tied in a bouquet What the hell is that Those are my dreadlocks I just cut them off, said an enormous voice from behind me It definitely wasnt Will I turned to see a woman wearing rubber boots and a Carhartt, on which someone had spray painted a spider stencil She reminded me of Ma Joad from Steinbecks Grapes of Wrath, a woman you would never want to fuck with and who might throttle you if backed into a corner, but with a fierce love and mothering instinct to match She introduced herself warmly as Molly and said she lived across the street She mentioned I could use her toilet if I needed to, and walked through the anteroom, parting a curtain into a whole new world, common in many cultures, but new to me, that of the dissatisfied and creative, the artists whose medium was society itself, those attempting, however navely, to make the world anew, and better this time I followed her in The room was warm and neighborhood children were performing a puppet show called Patricks Weird Beard inside a huge cardboard television that had been constructed onstage A half dozen kids in homemade costumes were giggling and stumbling through the show of their own creation The small room was packed and the lights had been dimmed The fire in the wood burning stove was raging and you could hear its roar in the silences I found Garrett in the crowd and slid in silently next to him He whispered that earlier in the night they had hosted a City Council candidate who gave a speech inside the TV He was a dark horse, and had just gotten out of prison, but seemed to make a big impression Garrett also mentioned I could use his toilet if I needed, because the one in here had frozen After the play the lights were turned up and everyone milled around in conversation There were about thirty people in the room, most of them in different states of dirty, but none of them filthyit was like the healthy glow and smell you get after taking a run, not the kind of funk when youre lazy and havent showered in a week This dirt was from work The children scurried among all manner of art made from TVs, grabbing food off the tables, continuing their puppet show offstage, laughing Garrett pointed out the farmer, Paul, in a pair of coveralls, who had grown the hay He was skinny with a neatly trimmed gray beard, and was drinking a can of beer, talking with a red headed black boy He had a wiry, electrical energy, and scurried away before I could introduce myself He seemed important, revered even, someone with an entire spinning globe of knowledge inside his hyperactive head, a leader of a leaderless tribe Who was this man with a tractor and hay and a block of diverse people in East Detroit I asked about the TVs Garrett said this show was called the TV Show, and the irony of it was that almost no one in the room owned a working one He said everyone from the block had been pitching in to get the building functioning just enough for the evening He pointed out a new mural that had just been painted, a mother earth green figure growing too big for the wall and onto the ceiling with doleful eyes and huge feet The artist who had painted it sat beneath the picture on a reclaimed church pew with his wife She was intensely pregnant Thats his unborn son he painted, Garrett said Hes about ready to burst from Erins stomach Hell get raised in Detroit, right here on the block I realized the room and this block were the incarnate vision of a philosopher I had read in college, then living just a few blocks away and than ninety years old Grace Lee Boggs was Detroits patron saint of transformation, the spiritual center of almost anything truly innovative in the city Although difficult to pinpoint exactly, her fingerprints touched many communities like this, striving for a new image of possibility I had found an idea made manifest Busy introducing me to everyone, Garrett forgot to tell me about himself When I asked, he said he had moved around some, but had come from an art colony in San Francisco that had just been gentrified out of the Mission Originally from Boston, he was trying to decide if he was going to make a go of it in Detroit or just keep wandering the polluted and harried cities of Americas urban wasteland Not liking to talk about himself, he quickly introduced me to people whose names I immediately forgot, but stopped at a slight woman who had painted a picture of two hands stretching a tape measure that hung over the doorway Garrett introduced us and we shook hands Her daughters had been two of the children performing the play Hi Im Kinga We were interrupted by a ghoulish guitar chord from the stage A tall and tattooed man sat behind the drums, and a redhead I recognized from the last art show manned the guitar It appeared the final order of business was a jam involving anyone who wanted to play Thats Andy, Kingas husband, behind the drums, Garrett shouted into my ear Do you play Kinga yelled to me on her way to the piano Sure I grabbed a guitar, and much of the neighborhood was onstage, than a dozen people, adding their little sounds, working on one thing as a community before the night was through The rest sat in the audience, clapping and hollering and drinking Andy sang into a microphone Nobody can unplug my drums Thats why Im beatin em And no one can unplug the sun I sold my car and bought a truck for 1,000, a rusted F 150 built when I was still in elementary school That birthday, my twenty second, I asked my parents for a power tool set that included a reciprocating saw, circular saw, drill, and flashlight I thought leaving would be turning my back on everything that dead baby boy represented, and I needed something to keep me in Detroit, keep me from running away I was going to try to buy a house and I was hoping Forestdale could show me how to build it into a home My father was excited that I wanted to do something befitting a man While he and the rest of my family had been building things, I had been writing poetry This was something he could understand Wisely, he had bought me a single tool each Christmas since I was a toddler, so I already had many of the basics, screwdrivers, wrenches, and such He was happy to oblige with of the same Will said I could live for free at his house that summer, but no longer He was a private man Aside from a single paper, all that was left of school was to graduate The essay was for Charles, the kind professor who would take me to lunch It concerned that dead baby I was angry and hurt, both at myself and my peers, who I thought were leaving their posts at the most crucial point The paper was dramatic and not particularly self aware I was slashing with a knife of self righteousness at anything near me, including potential allies Maybe I needed to do it to leave both behind, Zenos raw world of the drug trade and tenements, and Charles stifling, pretentious world of circular and hopeless discussions at the university I was looking for something far meaningful than either, something closer to the American heart In lieu of a grade for my paper, Charles gave me this response My guess, based again on my own struggle projection , is that you feel empathy and horror for the pain you see in Detroit, and that you feel revulsion at the comfort you see in Ann Arbor That you may also feel drawn to Detroit as a way not only to support the people there, but also to work out your own personal anger That your anger sometimes frightens you, because you do not want to lose the love and acceptance of the people you are angry with That you feel panic sometimes because, despite your good intentions, you feel helpless to do anything about the social conditions that you see That you deeply, desperately want to create change, and that you do not really know how to take effective action That dropping out seems the only alternative, but an ineffective one That you feel deep confusion about who you are and what your identity is in all this mess That you feel excited by possibility, and deeply sad and lonely That what you really want in an ally is someone who can see not only your courage and ideals but also your fear, loneliness, and shame.In this impassioned memoir, a young man finds a community flourishing in a city so depopulated that houses are worth less than a used Chevy.Philp ably captures the frontier feel of Detroit as he laboriously rehabs his ruined house from foundation to roof His homebuilding narrative is engrossing.The book shines in its depiction of the radical neighborliness of ordinary people in desperate circumstances Publishers Weekly Philp quickly becomes an involved resident, using creativity, resourcefulness, ingenuity, and positive thinking to create a place for himself in a depressed cityhighly recommended for general readers interested in the history and resurgence of Detroit and other U.S cities Library JournalEngrossingPhilp is a great storyteller, and he has done a good job of documenting his struggles to carve out a home Its also easy to see why he intends to stay Booklist A deeply felt, sharply observed personal quest to create meaning and community out of the fallen citys cinders of racism and consumerism and escape Philp ably outlines the broad issues of race and class in the city, but it is the warmth and liveliness of his storytelling that will win many readers A standout in the Detroit rehab genre Kirkus Reviews, starred reviewLots of young bohemian types are fascinated by Detroitland of the fabled 500 house but few take the plunge as headily as Drew Philp did, not only buying his own place but renovating it from the inside out, getting to know the neighbors, and learning about one of Americas most fascinating cities as only a true resident can Philpwrites about his experience with sensitivity, humility and humor, and his voice is a necessary addition to the literature of the Motor City Mark Binelli, author of Detroit City is the Place to BeDownright eloquent and deeply moving Beyond the sheer, compelling force of Philps writing, his account is insistently honest and full of insight No shortcuts No unrealistic fantasies No pretenses of the sort that made my nerves twitch before I gave up on the literature of Nightmare Detroit Philp the 23 year old kid comes alive convincingly, in all of his confused but determined effort to rebuild a house and sink roots He captures the city in all of its horrors and hopes, contradictions and blind faith Frank Viviano, eight time Pulitzer Prize nominee, and National Geographicwriter since 2001An important and powerful memoir that looks at the struggles and great efforts being spent on breathing life into a decayed city, and delves into the complicated and diverse people trying to carve out better futures New York Journal of BooksA fascinating inside look.Philp writes with exuberance and sincerity.Inspiring Minneapolis Star Tribune A House in Detroit Rebuilding an Abandoned Home and A is Philp s raw earnest account of rebuilding 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    • 305 pages
    • A $500 House in Detroit: Rebuilding an Abandoned Home and an American City (English Edition)
    • Drew Philp
    • Anglais
    • 2017-06-14T04:10+02:00